I don’t know how to explain this..
I’m numb most of the time. I feel nothing.
I can recognize what feelings I should feel, but I feel nothing, just empty.
But sometimes.. I do feel.
When we are talking at 1am, or when I’m reading next to you as you drive down the highway, or playing catch with the dog, or laying down as you drive through the fog with your thumb gently rubbing my shoulder.
In these random spurtz, I have feelings
And in those moments, I feel it…
I love you.